Euphoric

Last week we had a clinical exam for some nursing skills. We had to pass a minimum of 2/4 to qualify for a resit and I was lucky enough to do that. I don't blame my poor performance on anything or anybody but myself because I had made a wrong calculation which may have killed a patient in reality.

Yesterday I had my resit and I did really well- even the marker praised me for my vigilance in getting everything perfect. Passing this meant a lot to me because unsatisfactory performance would mean automatically failing the whole course (13 weeks and an essay wasted).

As soon as she told me I passed I was pretty euphoric. I was really scared and nervous and I could not truly study at all because this thing was on the back of my mind all along. Now that this is over and done with, it feels like a heavy burden has been taken off my chest and my concentration is back.

I felt really sorry for those who did not pass it the first and second time. It must be really hard on them right now, especially with 3 more subjects to study for and the fresh reminder of failure could be seen as a bad omen for the up coming tests.

Right after my clinical I held a meeting for a revision session with 3 other peers. We brushed over many things to see what we understood and what we did not and I found it extremely helpful. Although they thanked me for guiding them, I felt it was Jeremy who deserved the credit because he obviously prepared the answers for us to take home and read. All I did was explain the parts which they did not understand.

I have 4 full days to make study hard for the exams. Monday, Wednesday , Thursday and Friday. My girlfriend returns on Tuesday so I will try to pick her up from the airport.