Streak

My bad luck streak is still going strong. This week we had a clinical practice examination and I had my friend be my partner. While I was not exactly 100% confident I did feel I was prepared enough to do well. We went in and were given case scenarios whereby my friend was to role play as an anxious patient while I was meant to be his counselor.

He was extremely nervous and before I was able to finish introducing myself, he interrupted me and screamed a dialogue. I was forced to skip the introduction and move straight into the therapeutic stuff. Although we both passed, the marker told me I would have gotten a better mark if I was able to introduce myself. Again this was something beyond my control which has lowered my marks. However I do not blame him, because he is a good friend of mine and I'm actually glad we both passed it.

Last night I was angered by a close friend of mine. I rarely lose control of temper but I don't know what went into me to hang up on her. Maybe it was the multiple times I told her I was tired and did not want to chat, or maybe it was the fact that she wanted to prove I was depressed in which I was not- I don't know. All I know was her concern transformed into annoyance and I just wasn't in much of a mood to put up with it. To aggravate me more was her friend in the background which repeated our conversation loud enough for me to notice it. It was wrong of me to hang up on her but I don't think I'm going to initiate the apology. I think I have had enough of people telling me how to live my life or tell me how I feel, as if I am unable to detect my own feelings.

I'm going to pursue things with my own expectations now. I'm not going to live someone else's 'dream' life.