Fall from Grace

I had my final newgraduate day today. As a treat, we had an excursion to all the hospitals in the area after our final exam. Considering it has already been a year, time really has passed quickly.

Now, today something rather strange occured... for some reason I started flirting with one of the others in the group. It started as innocent chatter in a group, but then it became more like a personal chat between the two of us. Not long later, we were making jokes with each other and we had exchanged numbers/emails since we won't be in contact as much after this program.

I don't know how to say this without sounding like an asshole, but for some reason I felt that she was indeed paying more attention to me during the day and even my friend noticed it; but I did not back down. In fact I think I egged her on, and I enjoyed it.

This feeling, I have been putting aside for so long since Sylvia had left me. Never had I laid eyes on anyone else, but today it just happened. I had butterflies in my tummy and I had a load of fun. My friend who noticed the development of this strange but magnificent relationship told me it was normal for me to look for another... considering the circumstances I am in.

I feel guilty though. I have a partner. She is not with me, but I have a duty to remain loyal. I need to fight these urges... perish them while they are still undeveloped. My mind is still thinking of this new girl, but I know that I am throwing everything away if I stray from Sylvia.