Eclipse

Community now is choc-a-bloc. I have an unending stream of clients who I must work with, ranging from centrelink lobbying to CTO hearings. I recently took on 10+ more clients as I felt it was too easy before... totalling up to twice the amount of clients since I started. I asked for it to be honest. But it has become a really beneficial challenge/experience and I am learning heaps from this experience!

Fall from Grace

I had my final newgraduate day today. As a treat, we had an excursion to all the hospitals in the area after our final exam. Considering it has already been a year, time really has passed quickly.

Now, today something rather strange occured... for some reason I started flirting with one of the others in the group. It started as innocent chatter in a group, but then it became more like a personal chat between the two of us. Not long later, we were making jokes with each other and we had exchanged numbers/emails since we won't be in contact as much after this program.

I don't know how to say this without sounding like an asshole, but for some reason I felt that she was indeed paying more attention to me during the day and even my friend noticed it; but I did not back down. In fact I think I egged her on, and I enjoyed it.

This feeling, I have been putting aside for so long since Sylvia had left me. Never had I laid eyes on anyone else, but today it just happened. I had butterflies in my tummy and I had a load of fun. My friend who noticed the development of this strange but magnificent relationship told me it was normal for me to look for another... considering the circumstances I am in.

I feel guilty though. I have a partner. She is not with me, but I have a duty to remain loyal. I need to fight these urges... perish them while they are still undeveloped. My mind is still thinking of this new girl, but I know that I am throwing everything away if I stray from Sylvia.

Reception

Today I went back to the Mental Health Unit to see a friend of mine. I was suprised by the warm reception from the staff over there. They all seemed to welcome me and speak to me - even the ones that are usually cool. It was a really nice visit.

I had my first Indian meal of my life with Jem today. I had butter chicken with rice and naan bread and Jem had some Lamb rostgalthingy. Great experience and good price, but we had to eat quickly due to time restraints.
Ahh.. I nearly forgot; one of the naan breads had a hair on it. I pointed that out to the waiter and I demanded it changed. Usually this isn't something I would do, but for some reason I asked for it. I think the confidence communtiy has given me has made me abit more demanding. Perhaps it could be something that our role requires....? I literally have to lobby for clients at centrelink and I represent the law when I apply for CTOs.

Anyway, I have already done 3 CTOs now. I have gotten what I want in every single one so far. Some I really had to fight tooth and claw over as the clients spoke extremely well, but some basically spoke for themselves.

One of my greatest weaknesses in the past was speaking to crowds/audiences. I had the vocabulary and the ability to romanticize things I say, but I used to stutter and freeze when under the gaze of many. However, this has become a thing of the past. I get nervous yes, but once I get started I can really get my points across well!