Mockery

As I was waiting for the train today, one of my old friends walked past me with a girlfriend in his arms. Neither of us said anything as he continued onto his way. As we exchanged glances, it reminded me of who/what I used to be.

It is not a well kept secret that I used to be popular with females. I have had dozens of relationships in my life, I could easily bet on which girl I could achieve in a set amount of time and achieve it with ease. I belonged in the "cool" group, and it wasnt hard for any of us to get a girlfriend.

This man I saw today is still switching his girlfriends like clothing. He was happy and he seemed to have no worries in the world. Dressed smart casually and his hair all gelled up, he was probably going to sleep over at the girl's place tonight. While comparatively he does not have a stable job or a reliable income, he was happy and he could still achieve whatever he wanted.
I was leaning on the rails wearing hospital scrubs, my hair blown to oblivion by the chilly night winds and my face drained of energy from the workload. My partner is still overseas and my popularity has dropped due to the sacrifice of my social life for this occupation.

It felt like I was being mocked as he walked past me tonight. What is making me rant is not the fact he has many girls to play with, but why he is happier than I am. Let my sum up how I stand now:

ME
-Stable Girlfriend; check.
-Reliable Job; check.
-Close friends; check
-Happy Family; check
-Expendible Income; check.
-Respect from community; check.

But why? I have chosen this road myself. I have rejected countless girls these few years. I can now support my family and have started building my own future. I have attained many responsibilities that I should be proud of. However evrything that I have achieved in these 5 years seemed irrelevant the second I saw his carefree face. Where have I gone wrong?