After returning from Hong Kong and starting work, I have realised that my connections with my pre-existing social networks has reduced by alot. This is due to my busy work schedule, and when I am off I really need the day to recuperate. I used to be afraid to start working, one of the main reasons being that I do not want to lose the very close bonds between my friends. Now it seems that I am the one putting off meetings/events with friends. I can't really think of a solution to solve this issue. Time management is something I was always good at, but it seems that I am too emotionally drained to even enjoy the time I spend with my friends when I do find time.
Yesterday my friends had been waiting from 8 to 10pm outside my workplace just so they could meet up with me for 1-2 hours. I feel touched and ashamed; ashamed that my friends had to exert this much effort and energy just to see me ( it just so happened my mobile phone ran outta batteries). These are the same people who have supported me throughout the last 2 years and as soon as I started working suddenly there's this huge rift between us.
One of the friends sms'd me to tell me how she was really scared - scared that one day we will all eventually lose this intimate bond with one another. I am scared too, but I feel powerless to stop this. I still want to live a life.
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