Much Ado About Nothing

I am feeling alot more confident in community now that I have nearly completed my third week there. Community is not as daunting as I thought it would be.

Firstly the people there are not as suprior as I thought they were. Perhaps I was intimidated by the flashy clothing and their unworldy good looks... who knows. I am fitting moderately well with them now. I do still feel out of place at times when I am unable to make witty comebacks, but I guess that is something I have to live with.

Secondly I think my job is abit too easy. It's true that I am my own manager as a case worker. I can choose what I want to do when I want to. I can even choose to spend the day strolling Westfields if I am in the mood, but that would get boring pretty quickly. Perhaps I need an addition to my current caseload. However I told my preceptor I am willing to take on more after my first CTO.

I have found something that I can really improve on during these few weeks though, and that is my speaking skills. It's funny how I say that I need to improve on my speaking skills, as most people think that I am pretty sharp tongued. I have noticed that I can come up with alot of good points and/or arguments, however I am unable to drive these ideas forward to deliver them with as much force as I should.

That is something I can definetly work on.

Case Managing

Been in community since Monday, and I am having a little trouble adjusting. I guess it is a normal thing to feel indifferent to new environments as I need time to adapt and to cope with these changes. Some things I can change right away, some things I may need to learn how to pick up.

For instance, I believe that the staff here are alot more witty and sophisticated. These people are alot more presentable - in fact they are all handsome or beautiful. They are able to just blurt out all these sharp jokes and comebacks without pausing and sometimes I find myself needing to focus on their dialogues to catch on. I cannot learn how to be wittier and more intelligent, and I wonder if this would effect my integration into the team.

In addition, the pace of the work is alot different. I find myself sitting on my desk twiddling my thumb alot more now. I have the title 'case manager' and my responsibilities are alot bigger now, but I feel like I honestly have nothing to do. Perhaps the previous case manager who handed me her patients did a really good job - I do not know. I just hope that I am not sitting there and not knowing there in fact to do.