Exhaust

I've been heading to work early then going to 8 hour clinicals. I wake up at 6 and come home at 10 every night now, usually sleeping around 11-12. This is part of an effort to keep the absence of Sylvia out of my head.

So far its working, so I guess I have to keep doing it until I can accept that she is gone.

Mental Health at Liverpool Hospital sucks. The staff are not engaging to the staff and would rather chat between themselves than to the patients. I do not want to be like them when I work next year.

Funny

Today me and my friends played warhammer and table tennis at their place in Kinsgrove. We had heaps of fun. The at night they took me all the way to Canley Vale to try out some avocado shakes. It was magnificent. After that we went to somebody's birthday party in Liverpool and after a while we left. On the way home I realised thatI was missing a bag. The bag didn't have that many items in it, however it contained my vaccination card which is required for me to oomplete my last clinicals to graduate.

Marlo screamed out "JACKY YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS" and immediately halted the car. We all had a search but my bag was nowhere to be seen. He immediately called the people at the party and thats when it dawned on me I mustve of left it at the restaurant. Marlo drove straight back to the restaurant again from Liverpool to Canley Vale. He was speeding and his facial expression was very concerned, he knew that I needed the vaccination card to graduate. We rushed there and luckily I got my bag. The workers there were so good and honest.
Anyhow, long story short, I am so glad I have met these guys. THe university experience may have been shitty, however the quality of friends I have met are just... priceless.

It's kinda funny how I am so fortunate to have these people care so much for me. I mean, throughout my whole life I have had people looking after me. I have never really been alone anywhere that I go. I hope things do not change once I start working at my new place next year.

Up Myself

I have finished all my exams and have digested the fact I have got my graduate position. In hindsight I think there were several reasons I got what I wanted.

1. I answered pretty well
2. I asked plenty of questions back to them
3. I had a slight sense of humor
4. Perhaps I'm male so I stand out a bit.
5. Interview in the morning
6. I got really dressed up and had my hair dyed and cut.
7. I am not too ugly (statistics prove that good looking people get jobs easier!)
8. I am doing Masters
9. Masters was in a totally irrelevant field - shows my adapatability
10. My age - maybe inexperienced but can build upon it
11. My referees were majorly supportive
12. I had the blessings of all my friends/family
13. The interviewers were very nice (but why didn't my other friends make it?)
14. Shortage in the Mental Health field
15. They felt my home was close to work (not really)
16. I was chatting to girls from other universities that I did not know before the interview (social skills?)
17. I had a short casual conversation with the interview organizer and she remembered my name?
18. Interviewees after me were relatively poor (which makes me stand out)
19. 2 of the interviewers had mental health management history
20. Don't know how to explain this but I would have to be a bit up myself and say I charmed them? My small jokes and my easy going attitude ( which was faked, I was scared shitless) made them feel comfortable with me. Some people think I am charismatic while others think I am a total geek. Perhaps I struck the Jackpot that day - all 3 thought I was charimatic. Hehehehe.

Anyhow, The finals were neither too hard nor easy. I have accumulated enough marks in my essays and stuff so I only needed like 20% of the final exam marks to pass anyway. It feels great to know that you are already employed while you sit the exams.

Please excuse me while I bask in my glory. Opening that letter was the best day in my academic life. Now I have my future planned.

Light

I only expected to get my 3rd or 4th preference to be honest. I really did. This morning I walked down and found a huge package waiting for me to open. I opened it and I found that I got my first preference. I will be working as a newgrad RN at St George next year.

I am euphoric right now. I have tests tomorrow but I cannot focus. I;ve already accumulated 40 marks for every subject. I only need 10/50 for each final so it's pretty hard to fail unless I do not turn up.

My 5 year plan to marry Sylvia can be commenced...