Sinner

Today I have committed a crime. A crime which has damaged my personal integrity and one that will possibly follow me for the rest of my life. I think I have come to the point of my life where I am so dissatisfied with my life that I needed some thrill to 'feel alive'. I understood that I would be unable to counter the burden of the risks involved if I was caught. However, the rush of adrenaline and excitement lured me into continuing, giving me an indescribable influx of pleasure which I have not felt since high school.

I feel a mixed sense of satisfaction and great guilt. I feel dirty all over but at the same time I kind of look forward for another opportunity to re engage in what I have done today.

Right now I feel as though my life is at a crossroad. Maybe I need some 'me; time to reflect on what I have become and where I am heading with my life.