Ceasar

I finished my 6 week clinicals last week. It passed quickly because our facilitators were understanding and the objectives were clear and simple. I feel that I have really progressed and become more competent in every aspect of nursing. However I may need to build up on some IV drip skills as I still lack confidence in doing them.

One of the more notable experiences of the clinicals was getting to see a ceasarian. It was pretty graphic and not exactly what I expected. The woman was locally anesthetized and went through the operation oriented and chatting away, whilst the surgeons were cutting away on her layers of skin, fat and muscles. I got to experience the smell of burnt human flesh as they used the coagulator to dry up all the blood that was coming from the site. The smell was nasty, it reminded me of rotting meat. When it was about time for the baby to come out, the surgeon shoved her hand deep inside the womans body and pulled the head out, then continued to pull it with a clench-like tool. The baby was larger than I expected it would be and I personally felt a bit nauseous because the baby was bluish, covered in blood and did not exactly look human to me.

If ceasarians are supposed to be the more 'simplified' modes of birth giving, I cannot imagine how ugly a normal birth is. I cannot imagine why people only affiliate birth giving as a beautiful thing but bar off all the other stigmas that come with the birth giving e.g all the incontinence, farting, screaming/cussing, pain, tension and fear that comes along with a natural birth.

I'm not saying that babies should not be made or it is an ugly thing, I just don't understand why it has been glorified to the extent that it has. Life is a beautiful thing, but that particular situation is not exactly the prettiest sight in the world.

Yeah I don't like children... bite me.